Just Getting Through

“I don’t know what to say,” she said.

 “You have much better prayers than I do.”

It was late for a school night and I was done.  It had been a long weekend followed by a long Monday followed by a long evening of kid activities.

I  wanted her to pray.  I couldn’t even pretend I had words.  Drew and I were frustrated with each other and I just wanted this day to be over.  I didn’t have the sentiments to wrap up this day into a nice ending that would help my kids  (and me too) drift into a peaceful sleep.   I just wanted Abbey to pray so that I could move on to the next kid and get the bedtime thing done.

“There are no rules,” I told her.  “Just say what you are grateful for and how you are feeling.”

She took a breathe and said, “Thank you God, I am content.”

That was it.  She rested gently into her pillow and relaxed under her soft comforter.

As the bedtime whirlwind continued, my mind kept obsessing about all the things I just wanted to get through.

If I can just get through this year.

If we can just get through this last week of school.

If we can just get through this baseball season.

If we can just get these kids through elementary school.

If I can just get through this Sunday morning.

If I  can just get through midlife.

If I can just get through this conflict with Drew.

If I can just get this kitchen clean.

If I can just get through this load of laundry.

If I can just get through bedtime.

If I can just get through this prayer.







I know I talk so often about being present to the moment.  But this isn’t something I can do naturally.  Each and every day I am trying to get through something and tonite as I stood in my closet putting away the next round of clean clothes I couldn’t help but think I was never going to get through.

My mind drifted back to my goodnight prayers with Abbey.

Thank you God, I am content.

It’s a choice.  It isn’t a matter of getting anywhere.

So tonite,as I get through this post and I get through whatever is next- I’m going to make  point to remember an eleven year old’s “not so good” prayers.  I’m going to be real with how I am feeling when I say whatever prayer I can come up with.

Here I am.   Not so content.

 Help me find something in each and every day, every hour,  and every moment that will help me live for what is now and not just trying to get through.

For the amazing sunset the kids and I saw as we drove home this evening.  For the cool breeze at the baseball game.   For the wonderful teachers my kids have had this year.  For bird that I startle off of her nest each time I walk past that same tree.  For the lettuce that my neighbor shares with me from her garden. For the phone call with my sister today.  For the soft bed I am resting on as I type.

For this I can only say, Thank you, God.  Help me to about more than just getting through.



7 thoughts on “Just Getting Through

  1. I’m with you on this. Sometimes I wonder if I can just get through this life, it gets that messed up sometimes. But the moment is everything. This moment is good.

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  2. A coup!e of weeks ago our pastor’s sermon was about “counting our blessings”. But it was way more than that. He said to think about all the good things that happened that day, and then to go back and do it again, realizing how many things you miss the first time around. Taking the time to really think about it and be in that moment is tough, esp when we just want to get through. Thanks for your honesty. You are not alone!

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    1. That reminds me of St. Ignatius practice of Examen. Looking for the places and spaces we experiences God in each day and where we felt the lack of. It is helpful in seeing all the things we tend to miss if we aren’t taking the time to see them!


  3. Jumped over here after reading your great post on Momastery – you are a wise and real woman! If my girls were living their lives like I have been – just getting through, wishing the day away, praying for the weekend – I would be so sad. Thank you for this great reminder to appreciate The Now!

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